Okay, first thing is first. I have neglected you. I’m sorry. Do you forgive me? I really do love you, and you and you. And I didn’t mean to neglect you, but, like everything, things just sometimes take over and it snowballs and it just goes down hill. It gains momentum and then we can’t slow it down because it pulls at us.
But, I am back. Crawling back, dirt beneath my nails. Knees scuffed up, maybe bruised and battered. But I am here. And I want to thank you. Thank you for not leaving me. It is almost the end of the 2nd month into the new year, but it feels like forever for some reason. Maybe because my brain is full of so many things, but it feels like this has been such a long year already lol. I just wanted to give a little life update.
I have been getting my shit together. Seriously, honestly, and whole-heartedly. Which is part of the reason why I am here again.
I am still on Weight Watchers (who has now rebranded to WW) and am slowly gaining control over my health, for the last time. I am down a total of 45.8 pounds. I wanted to lose at least 50 in 2018 before the year was up (I started January 7th which was my first meeting aka workshop) but it didn’t happened as planned but I am so damn proud and determined to continue to keep getting healthier and healthier.
I have done yoga 5 times a week (at home bc homegirl isn’t paying for a membership quite yet) for the last 3 weeks. Today marks my fourth consecutive week of a work out 5 days a week. I. Am. So. Pumped. And so effing proud of that, too.
I started a new business. Am I crazy? Yeah probably. Is it worth it? Fuck yes. 100% it’s worth it.
I am surrendering living and working for the weekend. I am ACTIVELY working towards my new business, working towards FREEDOM and not being shackled to a desk in an office with people that don’t really care about me. The toxicity of working in an environment with people who are shady af, greedy, and cliquey, is way too much for the amount I am being paid. It just isn’t worth it. So like this blog, I am creating OPPORTUNITIES for myself because no matter how many times I apply, search, reach out for opportunities, they just don’t serve me or fulfill me like I need them to. And that is okay, because every closed door, every shitty work environment, is a push in the right direction. I know the universe won’t fail me - I know it has my back.
I have my back - and that is all that matters. The truth is, I am surrounded by tons of people who have my back. My amazing boyfriend, my best friends, my family, and the most amazing tribe of women in my new business that are so full of support, positivity, encouragement, and love that you can’t find anywhere else. Sure, like anything, there is a bit of a learning curve, but as long as you put in the work, there is no chance you can fail.
The only time you will fail is if you don’t try.